calling me amoral when I don't hide.

Seems like no matter what happens in the business, there will always be those types who have a real lack of professionalism. I write it off as them just being human, and in that some editors in the business should never be editors. I won't name names here but they are a pair of editors from Canada who have a habit of talking down on Christian authors. I am not a sexist or anything like that but I will go on video record dealing with every naysayer involved from the book burning idiots to the ones going and editing my footage like it belonged to them.
     Trying to dismiss me as some printed wannabe author, sorry to disappoint them but they've insulted every publisher ever to run my work with that remark. What I say on youtube doesn't reflect the views of my publishers. If you get offended to the very least there is the power button on your computer.
     Some of these anonymous naysayers do cross the line, and all I am trying to do is get some short stories sold and a legit reader here and there with a non-fiction book. It pissed me off to no end that some of them went as far to pirate the non-fiction book and been disrespected in the business for way too long. I am not naming names in the video but they already know who they are in this business.
     The fact some of them went on like this for way too long and went out of their way to try to convince people that I stole my story ideas when everything I've written is mine. Even when I did The Statue that was my own idea, though I borrowed some of the delivery from Twilight Zone fan fiction.
     I know how I am, and these people think they could wear me down. Sorry, but I got stories to work on and anthologies to edit. Stifling an author and if they are an author themselves, especially when they got published by an author I did a book signing with a few years back. Not mentioning names here but doesn't that reflect back on the editor of that book?
     The very idea the ones who should be celebrated are the ones who bow to false Gods, it is safe to say they do worship graven images. I didn't go into hiding, just I didn't want to waste my batteries and memory cards on people who like to hide behind the fact they are always anonymous in the fact they burn books on youtube.com. I would love to imagine if a teenager caught wind of that video and decides to burn a house down.
     History is something they like to forget. Those who forget history are fucked to repeat it. The very idea these writers who stifle the shit out of me are often the ones who aren't even major in their respective field. I mentioned one or two writers by the kind of book they wrote in my non-fiction book, their name wasn't mentioned but the person liked to say I got negative talent when I respectively sold stories to noted magazines over the years.
     I refuse to allow some 'editor' to talk down on me like I am a little kid. Hell I treat most editors more professional than what these Leisure rosters like to treat me. It reminds me why I buy books from authors who are published on Iuniverse.com and PublishAmerica.com authors . They don't hide anything when they write their books.
     I am not a slouch, and when I am unscripted when I do videos. It shows I am human. What have my publishers done to you? Nothing. All they did was publish a short story of mine, and I had to compete with a hell of other people to get in the magazine.
     The ones who've ran that so called "message board" are not immune by what I am going to say here. I am just giving all of you a better reason to hate my guts if anything. I am not about to let some false god worshipping bimbo talk down on me like I am some fucking kid, she reminds me of a cunt from Gothic.net that used to fuck Mike Lovell. Some of these message board posters pissed away all their common sense. When they know they are the type of people who have morals or pissed their morals away. I haven't gone into hiding, I am just too busy writing to deal with you. The two editors I am not naming here but they know who they are, I will address them as backwater white trash.

Russo is crazy

She's reading between the lines about wanting to sue me for libel; I didn't even mention her by name once. Might have mentioned how lazy she was in code but never mentioned her by name. It's weird. Things like this do happen and I guess the courts have to read the books just to get the facts straight with the book. I guess I should have brought a copy of the book to Gothicfest 2007. This is just crazy the fact this is going to be hanging over my head here, I have ideas like crazy here for stories and this threat of a lawsuit is giving me a massive idea to play around with. Lawsuits, lawsuits and more lawsuits. I am being extremely sarcastic with the fat little clown. Yeah I would like to see her file a countersuit.
      Famous for being famous vs. blood, sweat and gears. If someone went and wrote a story about how she really is and did it as a work of fiction, they'd make millions off the story. The little mommy dearest. She couldn't control me at the apartment and trying to dangle this lawsuit over my head because I wrote An Eye In Shadows. The whole Russo thing does come into play here with her lost touch with reality. I heard many stories about her and fuck I wish they were wrong, but they weren't. Maybe with all the input, I might end up coming up with ideas that will blast on the mental midget. The midget thinks that she's the biggest thing to the business or the community but in the metal community she's just another piece of ass.
      Am I afraid of this one, hell no. The fact I knew I was going into a territory that would be bad ground. The fact she is a mental midget who might have about 2700 friends on Myspace.com. The fact we do run in similar circles, and from those circles I also hear the stories about her too. I can just imagine her buying a voodoo doll that looks like me and throwing darts at it. Russo you really fucked up. Face it -- if you didn't fuck with my signing, you tried to fuck with my book. War is hell, and you just stepped into it. This won't end pretty on either side. The fact that this lawsuit is already felt across the Goth Community in Chicago, and the only people who can protect you from my fury are Koehler and Keene, and even they are fair game for me. Hell I could see you calling on them as witnesses on your case for this book because I rip them a new one too in this.
      Sue me for what, I got no money -- I am not a millionare. This is definately the hammering process going on. The fact some people hang out with her is because they feel sorry for her or give her the money she wants because they don't want to hear her whiny voice. Showing up to a band vocalist with a wedding dress on -- she's looking for a husband guys, run. The fact I am writing new material right now, and no it is not about the crazy, fat little clown. You messed with an investegative journalist Russo, and yes this kind of journalism has no kind of mercy. You're pissed now Russo but I haven't even started yet. to. royally piss you off. The fact I am beginning to think you gave everyone my phone number to prank call.
      You told my best friend of twenty years that I was trying to get into your pants -- you're seven years younger than my mother. I date at oldest four to five years older when it comes to the female sex or six years younger. Russo, you're too old you lying spinster. Lying to my long time best friend, what's wrong with you. You max out two of my bank accounts, and eat me out of house and home. Food I saved for my buddies when they come over for a Chicago Bulls game -- you feed that off to people before you ask me about it (I got nothing too feed my buddies when they come over there.) You drink all my six packs when I need that for on the train or when I take my medicine. You eat more than me.

What the hell...

I guess the Other Dark Place are wanting to be dicks about me when I am trying to ignore the asshole convention forming over there. I got a book to write and a deadline to meet with the book being done. I guess they want to get me from writing on it as much as possible because they don't want a book like this to go out there. Contracts will be lost and authors will lose book deals, some authors need to lose their book deals I think. They got a lot to lose when this book comes out and guess they are trying to do that counter-book they want to do because it is in their nature to ruin someone's career. Let a man gain his book sales, and that is all I want -- leave me to make some money on a book. R.J. take your head out of your ass for one minute before you claim parody, it is doing what Susan Taylor and that asshole boyfriend are doing.
    I've been quiet because I want to get this book done and to press. Keene go fuck off and let a guy write in peace. You made your royalities for being a major asshole about railroading someone's projects. Especially you dickholes who go around stealing copyrighted photos and doctoring them up to make them all pornographic. That is libel right there. Why the fuck would you want to libel someone when there is money involved here. You bastards are ruining a career of someone and that is a violation of someone's rights. Yes I am out of the entitlement generation and my entitlement is to my royalities on a book. Even you assholes might think its funny to knock someone around when they're quiet. Piss off and let me get my sales of projects out there. Fair enough?
    Face it you all hate my guts, and don't like the fact I did get legitimate sales under my belt as a short story writer -- true I might self-publish some short story collections, but do I go around ruining sales of R.J. books -- no. Yet you assholes libeled the shit out of a charity anthology -- a charity one for fucks sake. That's worst than pirating the project, and you assholes actually admitted to do that too.
    It goes with the territory with that board, devoted every way in libling the living shit out of projects. Yeah keep trying assholes because you're going to succeed in one thing; what is that you ask? Failing.

Updates: An Eye In Shadows

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53,104 / 95,000 (55.0%)

Every novelist seems to have one of these items, I guess this should work for every writer who is doing that lengthly book too. I attempted to have one of these before but now I am going to have it now so it can help me gage what I wrote on this book. I can just imagine some are either trying to spread many lies about me right now and it is unbelieveable that they're willing to do that. Bastards who have no life if you ask me. I am going with an all black cover of this book -- no about the author here because this book is basically an about the author in a backdrop basis. I am truly thinking about putting this book out with Lightening Source directly. I can imagine what Ms. Temper Tantrum is saying right now wondering who gets libeled or slandered the worst in the book. It's not like I am writing that book that Susan Taylor and her boyfriend got drunk and were writing between sessions of eating peanuts from each other's shit.
      I guess there are many who are going to do everything they can do within their ability to stop a book like this from being published because it is the kind of book that will ruin some careers in the process as one person said. The damage to them is not reversible.

More fucking hate mail.....

"dear diary:

we cannot let this sick unstable man write that book, so i propose we pool our resources and our money together and write a little book of our own. the book will be fiction, based off non-fiction events, and take place in Morris, IL. the book will be about a man writing a book! yes, the main character is mental and happens to be writing a book and trying to railroad careers, but at the end of our book --- better written, too --- he goes nuts and the fiction becomes a tragedy in the likeness of Shakesspeare. yes, diary, you see in this book, he is the pawn."

-- valentinevegen

Sorry asshole I have no plans in killing myself anytime soon. I began to notice the asshole commitee decided to try to railroad me on a few different forums so I had to go back and make my presence felt on the communities once again. They are trying to cause a lot of LameJournal style meltdowns. The nonfiction book is being written and yes it will get out there. If you want to stop me from writing this book I am taking bribes. They can be sent to me via paypal and it has to be a high enough bribe to do it -- none of these $10 bribes either.
     As for Fagstine, I am going to keep writing that non-fiction book and as what he said there will be a lot of careers turning to shrapnel when this book is done. I am just waiting for the rogue's gallery to go fishing around for clues at how much I have left on the book. There are people harassing every magazine that I published in on top of it -- leave them out of this.
      Harassing publishers or the magazines publishing a story of mine. Not cool. If have a score to settle take it up via e-mail instead of doing a rogue's gallery of blogs, libelous websites, or forums the rip me apart without giving me a chance to say my peace -- fucking losers, and get a fucking life. I am concentrating on this book and yes I am more driven to get the book done sooner than later but yes I will get this book finished. There is no webrage here just want to get this book finished. You assholes have your books to sell -- let me sell mine.
     Make your bribes all you want because all you're doing is paying for the ISBN for the thing. I know that you're the people behind the posts that flame on me from one forum to the next stirring up old shit -- Ahem, The Other Dark Place and The Rusty Nail. Dagstinte, keep trying to ruin everything I do because I see only one thing that is going to happen. It will get out there even more, and I will start even more imprints to do it. This non-fiction book will be written.
      All of you are doing is suceeding in one thing and that is pissing me off. Assholes, what gives you the right to do a counter book to the non-fiction book.

"Another thought...WHAT is he putting in this loosely defined "nonfiction" book [no, don't do a blog about it N, I don't care THAT much]...I mean all he knows is the crap that he imagines has happened...hell, we could scrap up all that dirt just from archived ODP posts and write a book to RIVAL his book...write it, wait for his crapfest to be "published", and then BAM! The NEW tell-all nonfiction book that HWSNBN didn't want you to have!"

-- Crazed Hostage Taker

I can tell they want to do a counterbook. the classic thing that Dennis Rodman's ex-wife pulled. This book I am doing originally started as a counter book that Dan Fox and his bitch of a girlfriend wrote about my family. Remember that bullshit that started the TruthAboutNick blog? That book is still there and they went and shelled out the money for an ISBN just to take a steaming piss on my name in print. This book I am writing there is nothing parody about it, in fact it will echo a lot of the bullshit going on these days in the business. The dirty shit that goes on behind the scenes so to speak.
     Yeah they're jumping a shark with the idea of doing this counter book. I am not paranoid about this because I do look at the other boards to see what's going on. Keep running your mouth -- all you're doing is giving me more fuel to write about either way. What they're planning is a crock of bullshit because the project exists. Yes the book exists and it is hanging over your collective heads.

Lake Fossil Press Isn't Closing, Not Now Not Ever

I am just redesigning Tabloid Purposes IV and doing damage control right now. The anthology will be published -- resized and every I am paying in authors in droves if 3 to six at a time pending on how much I am giving them. No one forced my hand in closing, and I am not going hitatus either. Just reformatting an anthology and redoing a table of contents. So Dagstine, Lake Fossil Press isn't going black because there are more anthologies to publish and as long this publisher is up and running I will keep doing them. But I will have a new policy with younger authors wanting to submit -- no authors under 17 submitting to Lake Fossil Press and you must be close to turning eighteen years old.
     No one did force my hand, and yes I will say that right now -- you fuckers didn't close my press down and it will keep open.
     The fact I am returning to being a larger paying market says volumes, well until I get my own place again. There are small presses out there who are publishing younger authors than I am. The youngest in Tabloid Purposes II was 17 years old and the guy's been with the series all that time. So by the time he goes professional he's already been road tested for the masses. Dagstines, Lake Fossil Press is staying live and I am publishing Tabloid Purposes IV -- won't be the last anthology that I am running and there will be more. Tabloid Purposes One was the experiment to see if the FictionPress writers can keep up with the small press counterparts. Kiss my ass fuckers, I'm staying open and I will continue to publish some kick ass anthologies -- whoever posted the forcing my hand you can go to hell.

fuck this is getting huge

You know when things are huge are when the Sodomite Magnet bitches about you. Damn the moment I get something published she's bitching about it again -- shut the fuck up already Poppy. Right when I am getting published, she shoots her mouth off about my non-fiction book. I am laughing right now because I saw the posts the assholes are doing on The Other Dark Place, now they are trying to pull out the petition that got them in trouble years ago. Wouldn't you like to know what are in the contents of that non-fiction book? I am not mad -- I am just laughing because the more I get my work published, and believe me the more people are going to bitch and moan.

This time Poppy called me out, damn. Fuck you bitch. You're making a big mistake underestimating me -- the same mistake that became Darren's funeral as the editor of Gothic.net. Poppy you were dealing with a pre-published Pacione last time. This time you're fucking with someone who is a publisher and a published author for a different field. Nothing funner than a sodomite magnet starting up an old feud. I read parts of that book you called good, when I have to say it sucked ass. Not even a good cover design would get some sales of it.

Yeah you can go to hell. Keep running your mouth about me lady -- I was already writing better stories than you were in your twenties when I was in my twenties. Don't ever doubt that I was a writer again bitch, don't ever underestimate me -- at least I didn't rip off H.P. Lovecraft's THE HOUND. So yeah in response to that, I am posting the original uncensored version of THE FANDOM WRITER (tempted to expand this version.)

the progress on An Eye In Shadows

Took a word count on the current non-fiction project in progress and will say I felt that it is surprizing that I worked on this less than a few months and already is the length of House of Spiders 3. (Give or take the same size as the short novel.) 100 pages already too, and so far PublishAmerica is interested but I want to send them the version that I am doing to put on Lulu.com but available to me only so I can show them what it looks like as a finished book then send the book to a few publishers with a disk including a promotional kit including a video explaining the project instead of a cover letter. It is funny when something of this nature picks up speed then when you really get into writing a full length book it is tough to keep focus on it -- so I was killing some time by playing around on http://www.newgrounds.com. I've been so busy with editing Tabloid Purposes IV and writing the non-fiction book that I haven't written any new short fiction in a long time.

The last new short story I wrote had to be Blood Contender and that was a few months ago and I wrote Misguidance back in March in about two hours so I am making that one available for free since it is a 2800 word short story.. It got accepted too on a publication. I won't say where yet because I don't want the asshole convention harassing them. The non-fiction book is about 30,700 words and climbing from there -- hopefully by the end of this month I will have that 30,000 doubled to 60,000. I am hoping to get more added to the book in the sense of the section that has the longest part -- being my freshmen year alone. The book itself will make The Fandom Writer, Bleed The Freak, and FUCKBEATER seem like child's play for me. The difference between those three stories and the book itself is that the book is a work of nonfiction, and the other stories are works of fiction -- Bleed The Freak is close to how this book is going to be except that it will echo true to life in that sense.

I've shown part of the non-fiction book to the editor of The Literary Bone because he is publishing the story that originally got published in England for the first time in the United States. It is a reprint now but still a print exclusive, this time exclusive in the United States. Those of you who are international and had copies of the magazine it appeared in you'll know the story I am talking about here. With that being said the non-fiction book right now is coming along slowly but pacing myself with doing this kind of project. Misguidance is the story that will show the blueprints for the third rewrite of the book. I am pleased with the way this story turned out.